Peer pressure

Darling Little One, I am sadly suffering from peer pressure and it is all about you. I have very few people that I talk to you about, and they are all trying to persuade me to push your mum for testing and for access. I am reluctant as you know because I do not want to endanger chances of us having a relationship in the future and because I care deeply about your mum. It is true that my friends and family have your and my best interests at heart, but I cannot allow myself that luxury, or at least in my case. You are really the only thing that matters in this situation. They all know I would do anything for you and I suppose they are trying to protect and help me achieve that. Sometimes (and if you read through of the blog, you can tell when) I feel that they are right, but ultimately they do not know your mother, what a good woman she is and how she will give you the best start in life. I hope that if it transpires that you are "our" child (not that she would ever describe the situation that way), she will be honest with you. Equally I hope that she will be honest with me. In emergency situations it is important to know that she can contact me. I hope that you are well. Only a few more weeks and you will be here! It is so exciting! Love always xxx