Happy New Year!

Little One, Well this is actually going to be your first year of course, but I want every year to be happy for you. It will be happy for me because you will be here and I am trying to sort out my life. I hope that I will get to see you and I suppose know the truth. If you are not mine, I think I am going to be heartbroken... I am just so pleased that you, my first child, will be born and I think I can deal with the hardship of not being a dad to you because I trust your mum and dad. I wish them the best too, but of course I cannot tell them. I know sometimes I am contradictory in my feelings about all this, but you really are the best thing ever. April will be the most exciting month ever. Love you little one. Love always xxx