Dreams again

Darling Little One, I never ceases to amaze me that I remember dreams about you. I never remember my dreams and it makes me so happy. You always seem to be a laughing toddler and I wonder if that will change as you get older. The only other dream that I had was of you being born. This obviously is not a premonition as I will not be there. But all the happiness you display makes me think that you are going to be a very happy child. That is the best thing that could happen. Hope that you are ok only another few weeks and you will be seeing the world for the first time. I am very excited! Love always xxxx

Cold morning

Little One, It is cold this morning, but I had another dream of you and it made me feel warm inside. You were a toddler playing on a trike and just wheeling around in such delight. It made me weep with happiness to see you there. It has been hard without your mum this Christmas, and it is going to be even harder without you next year. I love you darling love always xxx

Time flies by

Sweet little one, I keep thinking about how quickly time is flying by. In a matter of months you will be coming into the world properly. It is going to be your oyster! Whilst I am distant from you, you are in my heart and mind and dreams. I wish I could be at your birth, able to cuddle you and give a kiss that says I love you always and forever. I know that this is all unrealistic and that denial is unhealthy for me, but in my dreams we are always together. I like my dreams. I am counting the moments sweet baby until you are born. I love you. Love always xxx

Dreaming of you

Little one, I dreamt of you last night. It is the first time that I have, or at least the first time that I remember the next day. I cannot say it was a happy dream as it was observational - seeing you with your mum from a distance was hard for me, but you did look happy and you looked healthy and this comforts me. I am finding it harder and harder to think of you being apart from me forevermore. I just do not know how to try and approach your mum about seeing you occasionally because I do not think your mum would accept it. I always try to think about what is best for you, and of course I cannot talk to you about it. You are my ray of light. I love you. Love always, xxx