Love and possession

Little one, I think that I may have had a mini arguement with your mum yesterday on an anonymous website. We were discussing love and whether you should call someone you love "my". I assume it is her as she knows I post there regularly and the poster had the same writing style. Anyway out of respect for her views and thinking some more, I am not going to call you my child anymore. Because regardless of your biological parentage you are always going to be someone elses son or daughter. I think I am beginning to come to terms with that. I have been happier the last few days. I realised that I was becoming someone I have never been: desperate, selfish and miserable. This is not the person I was meant to be, and I have to take a more positive view. SO I am. This does not mean that I am abandoning you - I think that this blog has value to you and to me, but I need to be more detatched from my feelings and submerge them. I would do anything for you or your mother but I know the best thing for both of you is for me to keep quiet, let you all get on with your lives, and if there is some need for the situation to change then it is for your mum to decide. She is level headed and I am sure she will only ever do the best for you. Anyway, I hope that you are ok. I know your mum was getting a sexing scan this week or next - I think she really likes the scans. I know she loves everything to do with you. I'm happy by the way. Hope you're happy too. With love