Back again

Little one, I have been having a bit of a crisis of confidence the last few days. I seriously considered giving up this blog, but I have to say that I cannot. It is not that I want to, but I am trying to sort things out in my head. I want you to know the truth, because no matter what else I say and do to everyone else on the planet, you are the only one that I am always true to. The truth is that I am confused as to my feelings. I feel like I have to abandon you because I will have no part in your life. I feel like if I do not get your mother out of my head I will never truly be free to move on. I feel like I am a ghost. So what do I do? Well the truth is that I have to take responsibility for my actions. I got myself into this with your mother. You are a lifetime's responsibility and if all I can do is write for you in the hope that one day you want to know about me, well then I damn well should. I am sorry that I have been letting you down the last few days. Take care darling child. Love always x