More thinking...

Little One, One of the most stubborn thoughts in my head is how would you feel about all of this? I have a lot of advice from several people, but I am never sure what the best is for you. Finding out later in life that your dad is not your real dad is hard for the best of people. The question will always be why? And in some ways that will always be for your mum and dad to answer. As you know I really want to be your dad, but your mum wants the dad you are with. OK, but looking at it another way: Do any of us have the right to deny you access to your biological father (assuming that I am - the whole premise of this blog)? I am conflicted on this as you know from previous entries. My problem is that, if it was me, I would want to know - even if you still did not spend any time with me. There is no real way to explain this though, it is a moral judgement according to my own set of morals. Honesty is so important - I was once a pretty dishonest person when I was much younger, but today I try to avoid lying at any time. An honest person can never be wrong although they can make mistakes. As usual it comes back down to your parents, the ones who have looked after you and loved you thus far. Ultimately it will be their decision, and I hope that they make the right one for you. Missing you sweet little one. Love always xxx