Sad me.

Little one, Today has been a real struggle. Dreaming of you seems to have unleashed a torrent of emotions. I cannot lie to you, I really want to be with you. I have spent the whole day just thinking about you and how you are so special. What can I do? Some cultures in this world think that multiple parents are a good thing. Some tribes treat all men as the fathers to all the children. I do not want to disrupt your family but there must be some way that I can be with you. I cannot bear the idea of trying to do it by suing your parents. They will just hate me and that could so easily be projected onto you. I cannot suppress my feelings though and how do I live with myself? I have had a good cry, but I do not think the tears ever stop inside. I used to be happy all the time. Now I am not. One of my friends suggested counselling but I do not know how it will help. You are all I want. I miss you. Love always xx